The Find

I tried to find myself
First
In the lighter hues of life
I was happy
But
Still hollow inside

I tried to find myself
Second
In the majority's trend
I did catch up somehow
But
Then I had a usual predictive end

I tried to find myself
Third
In the crowds
I did get in
But didn't stand out

So

I found myself
One day
In a cup of strong tea
Brown sugar
Just enough sweet

Then

I found myself
Second day
In the classics that I watched
The colored fantasies thought by someone
The attractive thoughts etched by another
The sakura trees and high pitched voices
A language I dindnt know
But surely found attractive
It spurred me to something
I'd never known before

And finally

I found myself
In thoughts and words
In depths and folds
In creases of the mind
The things that remained
Tucked away within myself
The words I never spoke
One day I finally wrote
And once my pen scratched the right thing
For the first time
All that I had learnt in schools
Were climbing outside
For I found myself
In writings that had stayed
They grew with me
15 years of age
By every breath
Got stronger with time

Hence
Find yourself
For u may perish with the wind
Too soon
Find urself
A name
To live
Even after you rest
Sometimes
I know
You tried to fit in
With them
But you should
Find urself
In what you really are..