Am I losing Him?

Am I losing my Love?

I put my hand out on his side of the bed to feel him

But there was a blank cold sheet before on the bed

I forced my eyes open to see just darkness around the room

Panic seized my weary heart, and dread swept over me

With this sinking realization, the realization, I have lost him



In that pitch-dark, sightless gloomy room

I groped around, searching for hmm I love.

He’d lain beside me all these years every night

And was here with beside me last night;

Then I drift off to sleep, knowing he’d be here

But now he’s gone: and to where II can’t tell in this gloomy room



I tried calling his name, but my voice came out soundless.

Why would you leave without telling me where to find you?

Where have I gone wrong for you to leave me? I groaned soundlessly.

Yet, the more I craved my heart to search for answers, the more the responses

Came, but just as empty and vague as the gloom encompassing me soundlessly.

I’m like a sojourner in fairyland, barely vaguely recollecting my past.

My future layout blankly and darkly ahead, ahead, like the endless ocean.

Embossed in a fog, like an empty sightless haze, extending into infinity,

Where you can’t tell when the fairy realm would break into reality, and the hopeful shore we would arrive.



Oh! I wish him to return to me.

I entreat him to receive me in spite of myself,

Despite my errors and assumption of my ways;

And falling asleep when I should have stayed to watch with him:

I should have held on firmly to his grip, and not let go as he holds me.

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