You were not here.....

The times when you were not here,
I cried every single night,
Millions of tears rolled down the cheeks,
Still my heart didn't feel right.

The times when you were not here,
I did everything, I think I could,
I hoped against the hope,
Thought my decisions might be good.

The times when you were not here,
I grew pale with age,
Life just moved on and on,
And time turned the page.

The times when you were not here,
I kept the spirit alive, and went on,
Believing in what you once said,
Things that didn't kill us, will make us strong.

The times when you were not here,
My whole world just got changed,
My heart turned different,
My feelings rearranged.

So here I am now, at the critical stage of life,
Still scared and alone, still dealing with strife.