the sadness in my heart

i didn't understand why, but i felt almost everyone around me couldn't understand me. i felt as if this world was not made for me.
it didn't matter where i was. a family dinner, a party, any social event. i would usually be the one who was drowning in my silence and i was okay with that. i hated to fake smile, especially at family parties. it had such a weird affect on me... as if i'm forced to act like everything was okay. i'm not depressed... not at all.


i'm so used to being the "odd" girl. and it's not such a good feeling. you feel as if the world is planning the bad for you, and the people here will always try to make everything a living-hell. i know life isn't perfect, and it isn't meant to be.

i felt as if there was something missing. since no one understood me, where d who could i run to? my imagination. everything i ever wanted was there. i'm not the type to feel sorry for myself, and i damn sure don't want any sympathy. but i would sure love to know if there was someone else out there that feels like this.