The reason I fear men

When I was an adolescent, I screamed
No one heard me because they thought they dreamed
I continued to reach for help out there
But it was all for nothing in here.

He slowly walked in, in his shorts only
What he was doing was unlikely.
I stared at him with fear
All these years i thought he was dear.

But from what i was seeing
I suddenly knew that he was pretending.
My virginity was was taken by him that night
How I wished I could be saved by a loving knight.

I didn't give him my permission
But he obviously thought he could have a mission
A mission of destroying my life
I still don't get why he thought I was his wife.

I'm scared of men
I don't feel safe when I'm left alone with men
I fear man himself
And now I can't forgive myself

I found out that I wasn't the only one
That there are others who have gone
Because they feared his presence
"His Pres...?" I couldn't finish my sentence.

He destroyed our lives
With every one of his moves.
I blame him for fearing men
How I wished for an Amen.

I've grown up now
But I still fear men, you know?
I haven't dealt with the situation
But I think I should take a vacation
A vacation to therapy.