Falling apart

I am mad,
Mad, mad, mad, mad
Really mad.

Irritated
Mad, mad, mad
Irritated mad.

No one cares
I am mad.

I am furious
Don’t ask me why
I don’t know.

I just want to scream
Irritated, I can’t think
Every sentence I write,
Starts with I.

Is everything about me?
Then what is it that I want?
What is it that I want you to say?

Why do I feel like a lamb,
Chased by a wolf?
Why am I only taking short breaths?

Why do I feel tense?
Why is everything I write now,
Why, why, why?
I feel, I want to run,
So fast the wind cannot catch up with me.

I am still mad.

There is just no one who say;
I understand,
Just hold me,
Just let me cry,
Let me scream.

I want to scream, scream, scream
I don’t know why.
Why does things change?

I’m tired,
I’m angry,
Please let me scream.

Just read my words
Rubbish they seem
I want them out of my head.

I want to see them
I want to make a mad list
I want to make a need list.

Where is my island?
No phone, no electronics,
No interference.

Let me be myself
Understand me
Don’t change me
Just let me live my life.

Understand me,
Me, me, me,
Me…………