Second Chance

My love, what happened?

We used to be so deeply in love with each other back then, and now, you're treating me as if my mere existence doesn't visualize in your eyes anymore. Love, what happened?

I wiped the tears that had just escaped from my eyes. The whole thing was too painful to handle.

I waited patiently for Xander, my boyfriend--well, he already told me that he's already breaking up with me but I still consider him as my boyfriend, outside his classroom. I need to talk to him.

A scowl crawl up on Xander's face when he saw me outside his classroom, probably thinking that I was waiting for him, which is a fact anyway.

"What are you doing here, Chloe?" He preambled.

It hurts. It hurts to be welcomed like that by the very person who means the world to you.

I tried to hide the glint of pain I felt. I gave him a fake smile.

"Hi! Let's go out on a date!" I mumbled cheerfully.

"Chloe, we're over." It broke my heart.

I tried to fake a laugh. "Ha-ha. C'mon! We both know that you l------" He held my wrist and pushed me against the wall.

"Stop it! Chloe, grow up! Can't you see?! I don't love you anymore. We're freaking over!!!" He bluntly said.

I pull my wrist from him and I hugged myself as I slowly drift downward, still leaning against the wall.

"What's wrong?" I asked as tears ran down my face. "Xander, tell me exactly what's wrong!!" I covered my eyes with my hand and burst out crying. Damn, I sounded so pathetic.

"Chloe..." He uttered.

"Xander, I don't understand. Why are you suddenly treating me like this?" I demanded. "Had I done something that you don't like? Xander, tell me. And i'll change it." I pleaded.

"Chloe, stop it. Give up on me already." He talked back.

"I can't give you up, Xander! I'm so in love with you and doing that would just put me in agony! Xander, please babe, come back to me." I really sounded so pathetic as hell, but at the moment, I didn't care.

"Chloe! Just goddamn stop it!!" He looked at me with so much frustration and anger.

I wiped the tears that came down my cheeks. You have to stop now, Chloe. You should stop the fudge now! But...I just can't..

"Okay." I uttered and then stood up properly. I gazed his eyes intently. "Just answer my question, one last time and I won't care about you anymore!!" I shouted as I try to hold the tears that are on the verge in falling.

He just stared at me back.

I breathe heavily. "Do you still love me?" I asked with a firm voice.

He looked at me as if I just cracked a funny joke. "Is that it?" He looked directly at my eyes. "I don't, never did, and will never love you, Chloe." With that, he walked away.

I put my hand on my mouth to prevent it from giving off a sorrowful weep.

Damn! He has never love me?! What am I? Just a past time?

I noticed that other students are starting to gossip about our confrontation, but at the moment, again, I didn't care.

I ran away from that area and headed off to something I wasn't sure about.

What should I do? How could I bear the thought of him not loving me anymore? Yeah stupid Chloe, he never love you in the first place.

I was crying continuously until I came up into these two words.

Move on.

Those two words were really easy to say but hard to do. Damn, where should I start?

It feels like my whole life was in wreck and that no one could ever repair the damages that Xander did but, only him.

Xander, from this day forward, I swear to you: The next time we're going to see each other, I'll be able to look directly into your eyes without feeling such affection. I swear Xander, I swear.

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"Chloe?" I turned back to look who's calling my name as I was shopping in the mall.

"Uhh?" I tried to figure out her face but I just couldn't recognize it.

"Chloe! It's me Jean!" She walked closer to me and hugged me.

Oh right, she's Jean Lavander. My college classmate.

"Where have you been? Wow, I didn't expect to see you here. I heard that you flew away after you and Xander broke up." When she realized how rude she is to asked something like that she uttered. "Oh, I'm sorry." And then smiled sheepishly.

I chuckled. "Oh no, no. It's okay." I assured her. "Anyway, yes. I flew away to New York after that but it doesn't mean I was being bitter about it. I just knew that I'll learn more from there." I explained.

"Oh yes, I know. I was just..uh..anyway, how are you?" She diverted the topic.

"Alright, just alright. And you?" I looked at my wrist watch and acted as if I was in a hurry. "Oh my! I really want to talk with you longer but I just really have to go now." I lied.

"Ah? Oh, okay. Yeah, sure. Hope to hang out with you soon." She then waved.

I just smiled at her.

Why did I lie? Oh, c'mon! That Jean was included in those bunch of bitches who bullied me in my last days at St. Marriessa school, saying that I was too pathetic because I was dumped but that freaking Xander!

I didn't realize that I was already thinking deeply until I bumped into someone.

"Oh, sorry." A very familiar voice apologized.

He looked at him and was readily shocked when he saw me.

It's him.

"C-chloe?" Oh yes, the one and only.

I looked directly into his eyes. And finally, I could already say that my feelings for him finally faded!

"Uhh..excuse me? Who are you? I'm sorry but I'm in a hurry right now. So, mind if I excuse myself?" I pretended to act as if I didn't know him. After I said that, I walked away.

Way to go, Chloe!

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I headed off to the office hastily. I don't wanna be late! Damn Chloe, it's your first day!

I was already hysterically walking when i got there until I bumped into someone.

I looked up and saw him. "You again?!" I blunted.

He was seems surprised too but he's fast to recover at it. He's face turned into a stern one. "Chloe, we need to talk." He seriously said.

WHAT?

"I'm busy, sorry." I nonchalantly said.

He held my hands tightly. "You're still really stubborn, huh?" Then he smirked. He dragged me away from that area. I was exerting my all strength to pull away my hands but he was just too damn strong! I keep on telling him to let me go but he seems oblivion to my plead. I then realized where we're going to.

"WHAT THE H---" I stopped myself from cursing in front of the BOARD MEMBERS!

"Uhh, excuse me. Dad, sorry I'm late. I know it's a bit unprofessional but I was just enjoying time with my girlfriend." Everyone on the board started to do incantation.

Wait, he called Mr. Lancaster his dad?!

His dad gave him a quizzical look.

"Oh that, yes. Here, meet Chloe Beckham. My girlfriend. That's it. Sorry for the disturbance. You may now continue the meeting with us." He then smiled.

The board members gave a slight cheers for the both of us.

God! What the freak is this guy doing?!

After that incident, I was force to play along with his game. He said that he's father would get disappointed if I'll reveal the truth. He begged in front of me with such a puppy face. Damn! I know he was just kidding but nonetheless I played along with him. I don't know the exact reason why I agreed, it was vague.

Our set up became like that for about 3 months until one normal day, he confronted me.

"Chloe?" He called out as he entered my office room.

"Yeah?" I said not looking back.

"We need to talk." I looked back at him.

"Spill." I said nonchalantly.

"Damn it, Chloe! I said we need to talk!" He then walk towards me and dragged me out of my office room.

WHAT THE HELL IS HIS PROBLEM NOW?

We're already on the parking lot and pushed me inwards his car. I tried to go out but he already locked it. He turned around the opposite direction and sat at the driver's seat.

"WHAT THE FUCK, XANDER?!" I yelled savagely. "I STILL HAVE A LOT TO DO! COULD YOU PLEASE STOP BEING SUCH A CHILDISH D------" His next words made me shut up.

"I love you." He says, not looking at me.

I was frozen and no words came out to my mouth directly.

"Chloe, I love you." He says again, now looking directly into my eyes.

WHAT THE FUDGE IS THIS AGAIN?

"HAH! Really? And then one day, I'll wake up with your ominous treatment towards me and will get no explanations. That's it, right?" I sarcastically blunted.

"Chloe..." He uttered.

"No, no Xander! YOU FREAKING LEFT ME HANGING!! I'm only loving you and you gave me that, you gave me such devastation. I get it that I ain't the most sassy girlfriend in the whole wide world. But you don't have to treat me like that! Really, what am I? Just your play toy?" I said as tears began to fall from my eyes.

DAMN! I'M BEING PATHETIC IN FRONT OF HIM AGAIN!

He titled his face in front.

"Your dad, he told me to back off." He started without looking at me.

WHAT?!

"I tried to fight for us. But damn! It's your future that we're talking about!" He pinched his forehead and looked at me.

"W-what do you mean?" I bravely asked.

"He said he was going to stop sending you to school. He said he will put you into somewhere really unbearable and you'll be miserable for years. Damn! I didn't want that to happen." He muttered.

"BUT YOU MADE ME SO MISERABLE, XANDER! YOU DID! YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT KIND OF LIFE I'VE BEEN IN SINCE YOU BROKE UP WITH ME? Xander, it was the worse!" Damn! I should probably stop talking now.

"I'm sorry." His voice broke which broke my heart too.

"And you were that coward to believe dad? For fuck's sake, he can't do that to me! Because he's my dad! And you should've told me about it!" I talked back.

"Damn, Chloe! Stop being so stubborn. I'm not shallow! You were just adopted and he can easily do that to you!" He shouted.

Wait, what? Adopted?

"What did you say?" I asked as I try to contemplate things in my head.

"C-chloe, look, I didn't mean to say that. I was ju----" I hastily pushed myself outwards from the door in the driver's seat which is luckily still open.

"CHLOE! WAIT!" I heard him called my name until the ran I did was already enough for my ears to wash away his voices.

When I got infront of dad's grave, I cried almost instantly.

Dad died a few months after me and Xander broke up. It was devastating as well.

I knelt down. "Dad, you're my dad. Right?" I said as tears begun falling again.

The blew of the wind made me close my eyes and when I opened it. I saw dad, smiling in front of me.

"Chloe, don't waste your time again now. I know I had made such a bad mistake for sending you away from Xander. From being the cause of your devastation." He said. "But, I just did what I thought was right and it turns out that Xander is really a good young man for you. I'm sorry, my princess." He then patted my shoulder.

"Dad..." I said, running out of words to say.

"It was my mistake, not Xander's. And I think, you two deserved to have a second chance. Hurry up and tell Xander that you love him. I want you to be happy, Chloe. The happiness I took away from you when I drew you both apart." He then smiled again and started walking away.

"DAD!" I shouted.

He walked closer to me again and cupped my cheeks."You'll always be my princess, Chloe. Always." After that, I was back in my normal consciousness again.

I looked around and found out that I was still infront dad's grave. I know, it was his way to lead me back to Xander. My happiness.

I then came running to somewhere I could find Xander most possibly but I didn't.

I went to his favorite coffee shop, his office room and goes through the whole company but there was no sign of him.

I went outside and was about to go to his favorite promenade but a loud car accident echoed in my ears.

What was that?

OH MY GOODNESS!

Please don't tell me that it was Xander. No, please don't.

Was I too late?

I tried to fight with the huge crown just to take a peek at the said accident until I heard a familiar voice behind me.

"Chloe?" I turned around to meet his face.

"XANDER!!!!" I shouted and burst out in crying.

I hugged him in front of the violent crowd without enduring the embarrassment I could take because at the moment, I didn't care.

This is it. I'm giving him a second chance. I'm giving myself a second chance.

I'm giving US a second chance.