We all have that specific guy/girl that we need to stand up to in life, the one that you assume is a friend, and the one that you think understands you. We are blinded by our feelings towards them that we don’t clearly see that they are pulling our self-esteem down.
I feel the light breeze caress my face, probing the tendrils of my hair to tickle my face. Encouraging the insects to play their music louder.
Yes! I am in one of the best places in the world right now- I am standing in the dark on the top of my roof, I planned to sit and watch the stars, but standing just heightens the experience. I haven’t conquered my fear of heights just yet, but tonight fear has run away screaming in the opposite direction.
“Why do you have to go on like a boy?” he asked.
“Aah! Why indeed?” I whisper into the air.
People think they know the real me, when they get to see a different side of me. I do the things that I do, because I want to do them. I do have my reasons and I don’t have to explain them to anyone. I respect my life, I respect my being. My actions might not be good, but I will always have a reason to do it.
My reasons might not make sense to you, but they are my options.
“Stop acting like that, at least for the sake of the guy that you will marry someday” he said.
He insulted me, yet he still cares enough to worry about my future. In essence my personality doesn’t suit his idea of a future I should have.
The meaning of his words say he cares, his actions contradict it. I don’t care what he thinks of me anymore, I used to but it doesn't matter anymore.
This is my letter to you:
You have never been in my shoes so don’t tell me how to walk, you don’t know how many times I wash my hair, so don’t decide what hairstyle would suit me. You don’t know what I think so don’t form any conclusions for me, and you don’t know what is in my heart so don’t tell me who to love, because I have learnt to love myself and to not love people like you!