I wake up in the morning, the sun shines brightly in the sky. Birds chirping in the trees, warm wind gently touch my skin. Kids running and happily playing with their kites. It's summer again and my heart felt sudden rumbles. I feel sad again. How can i move on and tears starts to fall. This is the time when I miss most the love of my life..Jeff. He is such a gentleman. A sympathetic one who loves helping others. But Jeff, like any other guy, has a weakness, girls. He easily gets drawn to a beauty of a woman. When he was still my boyfriend everything was okay then. There's no problem we can't handle. For us, it was just a matter of time. We often hadn't much time for each other. This is because he was so busy with his work and I am also working miles away from him. We met at a party. Our common friend introduced us. After a couple of months became lovers as he was so persistent on courting me. I thought nothing could break the relationship I had with him. We are living together in a cozy apartment. Two years but I never got pregnant. We went to the doctor but the doctor said everything is okay, perhaps the kind of work we had is the problem. The doctor recommends us to have a vacation, just to relax. When we got home we talked about the vacation so we can plan early and take care some matters at the office. But Jeff's mood changed and he was so reluctant to agree on me about it. I let it pass and decided not to talk about it anymore. Day after day Jeff's treatment towards me became colder. And really don't have any idea of what was the reason, or was it because he never really like the idea of going away. He was changed. He got home late and leaves early in the morning. We never talked because everytime I try he walked away. One evening i called him on the phone and told him I cooked dinner for us. And he said okay, that's it. He didn't show up. I asked myself what is wrong in me? Even I, couldn't find answers to my own questions. I began to follow Jeff after he left home for work, and I found out that he was so close to his secretary. They had lunch together and one thing that shocked me was when he kissed her. I saw it in my two eyes, the evidence was clear. After work they went to a private place and they stayed there several hours and Jeff went home after that. So maybe that was their daily routine. I was hurt. So hurt. One night I waited Jeff to come home, maybe that was the right time to ask or confront him about what i saw. I waited hours until morning but Jeff wasn't coming home. I called him on his cellphone but he never answered. It never crossed my mind that Jeff would leave. Weeks passed and no sign of Jeff anymore, so I transferred to an apartment closer to my workplace. I never saw him again. My friends had told me that Jeff and his secretary are living together. I cried everynight because I cannot accept what happened to me. I try to keep on living and doing things to keep myself busy. I don't want to cry anymore. It really really hurts but I tried to survive the pain. It's unfair for me. We never talked and we never had closure in our relationship. It seems that moving on is very hard to do. But I know that time will come and all the pain i feel would go away. Yes I am cheated, hurt, scarred and broken to pieces, but I know I will stand again and become stronger for the trials that will come. Jeff is one of the trials I faced. And when fate wants us to meet again, I know where I stand.
