If Only Part II

I went out the house and saw the garden at the back, there were roses of different colors, daisies and even violets. I looked at the place, it seems like nobody bothered to take care of it. I saw the gardener pulling weeds and watering the plants, but it seems like he doesn't care that much. I approached the gardener and greeted him. The gardener was surprised took off his hat and bowed down, greeting me good morning.
I asked him if I can borrow a shovel. He still has this surprise look and curious look. He took the small shovel from the garden tool and handed it to me. I went to where roses were planted and I started digging the soil around it. It feels so good to feel the soil, I missed the feeling of mud and soil on my hands, how she missed her life.
The house help went outside bringing her snacks and was surprised to see what she was doing. People in the house were really astonished with the changes happening to their mistress.
I stood up and walked to where the house help was standing I asked her to bring additional food outside and call other helpers. When they all arrived I asked them to join me for snacks, yet they were all hesitant to do so. And then I started talking to them, asking information about Vistoria's personality.
“Maybe, you’re all surprised with the changes here, and you can’t deny it to me. I can see it on everyone’s face” I said as talked to them. Then I started to laugh that made them uncomfortable. And I said,”Loosen up, I won’t get angry if you join me.”

And I passed them a glass of juice which they still hesitantly accepted.

What kind of person I was?

They looked at each other and nobody dared answering my question.
"I want the truth, you can help me change my attitude if only you are honest to me."

The gardener answered first and said, “We are actually surprised of your behavior madam, you never dared talk to any of us, and whenever you speak to us its because we made mistake. You’re always angry and don’t stay at home.”

The older helper nudged the gardener signalling him to stop.

I looked at her, and said what do you think?

She looked hesitant still.

"It’s ok, I would love to hear it."

The old woman answered, “We’re all afraid that you might get angry if we tell the truth.”

"I won’t, I’ll be glad to hear it. It might help me save my marriage with my husband," I added.

That’s one thing I need to do, I don’t what the real owner of this body really wanted to do, but I know that I need to save their marriage. Maybe, she wants to do the same thing too.

The old helper then answered me, “You don’t want to get dirty, and so we’re surprised that you’re planting there. You always love your fingers clean and manicured.”

"How's my relationship to my husband, do you think we are having a good one? I asked in an innocent way. I know it’s a wrong way of asking but I don’t know how to ask it. I want to know what kind of relationship the owner of this body have with her husband.

“Oh! You always quarrel, because you always get home drunk from Party!” blurted out by the youngest helper.
The older helper nudged her,telling her to stop, The old lady looked down, feeling embarrassed.

“It’s ok. I want to know it in other people’s point of view.”

“Well, you don’t actually stay together. He is always on a business trip and for 6 years of marriage you never wished to have a baby.”

We were already in the middle of our conversation when suddenly the car honked. Signalling to open the gate for someone who arrived.
One of the helper ran to the gate to open it. It’s my husband, no it’s Victoria’s husband. He went out of the car and was surprised to see my hand full of dirt and mud. His brows narrowed and asked me, “Is that a new trick of change that you’re trying to do? Huh?”
“No, I just love gardening.”

He just looked at me and went inside the house. Still not convinced of the changes he saw.

By evening, I went to the kitchen to cook, I asked them about my husband’s favorite food. I started cooking his favorite food and still the same, house helpers were astonished to see me expertly move in the kitchen.


On the dinner table, my husband ---Nathan,that’s his name. He ate a lot of the food I prepared. It’s nice to look at him stuffing his mouth with the food I cooked. I looked at him and smiled.

He was surprised when he looked at me and saw me smiling while looking at him. I noticed that I've been surprising people even with the most simple thing I do.

“Nathan, I have something to tell you,” I started while he was about to finish his meal.
He just looked at me, and I continued talking.
What if I tell you something weird will you believe me?, I asked.

You've been used to telling lies the whole time, and you know that I never believed you., He answered back.

"But this one is different, it’s something important. I need you to listen.", I said my head start to throb, I don’t know if I should be saying this to him. In the end I decided not to tell and asked him a different thing.

Have you watched about the accident in the mountain side?

Yes, he simply answered.

One of them was my friend and they are very poor. I saw her mom on TV, she was crying over his daughter’s dead body. I want to go to her place. I want to help her. Can you help me?