I Didn't Realize

The idea of Vic with someone else is so horrible. I didn't realize how jealous I could become, and how dangerous it is. Until that one day...

It was a Sunday morning when I talked to him through the walls (he was in bed). I walked to the bedroom and I couldn't believe my eyes. He was hugging a woman. The strange thing about the situation was that I felt so much jealousy, but still accepted it. They were snugging and laughing and I still feel  sick when I think about that moment.

She got up and walked to the bathroom and I just walked to the other side of the bed and crawled under the blanket. I saw that he was wearing jeans and (my favorite) his purple pullover. I tried pulling Vic towards me, but he didn't really respond. Then I just crawled towards him and laid my head against his chest. I didn't realize that she came back from the bathroom and "joined the party". Vic caressed his hand over my head and played with my blond hair. While he played with my hear he said my name & hers (Kelly) and smiled. He didn't realize he was killing me slowly.

Then the moment came that they started talking about their soon to be 'couples vacation'. (PARDON ME!) I couldn't bare to stand one more second in there. I jumped out of that bed and he asked me why I was acting so childish. I just walked out of the room and I heard them talk about my behavior while I walked away.

I felt so powerless, I just started polishing the silverware in the kitchen. Kelly came in and started to talk to me... she told me some lame ass story about a funny e-card that she received on her e-mail. (she was probably trying to become friends) But I didn't pay attention to her. So she got offended and began to whine about my behavior. I didn't realize how psycho I looked, but I just turned around holding a butcher knife and told her " I don't wanna be your girlfriend, I don't have to act as if I like you, and I certainly don't have to take your shit.  This is my house, so if you don't like my attitude, See yourself out! GOOD DAY!". Then the dumbass gave me some attitude (I mean, come on.. I was holding a butchers knife)... Everything just went black .. I just screamed at her and ...!!!(nope I didn't kill her, you probably thought that I would huh?!). I told her to get the f*ck off out of my house. So she left.

After she left, Vic came out of the room. I asked him what he was up to, and he told me that he took a day off work to go shopping with Kelly. "Vic, I can not take this any longer. I can't live like this"  His response was: "I have to, its her birthday". (I wasn't talking about her stupid birthday, I mean HELLO .. I didn't sign up for this 'threesome'). Then I burst out "YOU NEVER TAKE ME ANYWHERE, AND FOR MY BIRTHDAY YOU GAVE ME DRUNK BIRTHDAY SEX. WHAT IS SO SPECIAL ABOUT HER? AM I NOT ENOUGH?" (hmm.. I didn't realize it was all about jealousy after all).

He walked towards the closet and got his sports bag, than he said: "just pack my clothes". "WHAT?!.. your leaving me and you still think that I will pack your clothes". I reached in the closet and grabbed his gun. I fired just once and shot him trough his heart. First I didn't realize Kelly came back in the house and saw the hole thing. So... I had to kill her (ah the poor thing.. !)

I opened my eyes and Vic stared at me, I looked him right in his eyes and smiled. Luckily it was all a dream.