Friendship is Key

I was never one to make many friends. In fact I went through my entire life without having a person I could call my friend. Most of my life I spent alone in my room crying. I never quite understood why I couldn’t make friends. Everyone would always be posting pictures of them and their friends. Everyone had a friend to hang out with. I didn’t. It never occurred to me that my senior year of high school I would have a friend.
Going through school alone made school a place where I was always upset or felt very unsafe. When I was at school I was bullied both physically and verbally. No one ever stood up for me. No one was ever there when I cried. I was alone. I was a freak. As much as I tried to fit in and make friends it never worked. That’s when I started telling myself that I’ll always be alone. Nobody’s words hurt more than my own. I’d ask myself questions that no one could answer. The worst question I ever asked myself was “Why am I even alive?”
My sophomore year I decided I had to go somewhere. I couldn’t stay at that school. No one liked me there, I would leave nothing behind. At that time I was convinced I would never make a single friend, but then I did. I went through junior year having people to talk to, but I still didn’t have that one person I could call my friend. Then senior year came along and I started talking to more people. Before I knew it I had that one person I’ve been trying to find for years. I had a best friend. That was one of the most amazing things I’ve ever accomplished.
When we first became friends I had no idea what to do, or how to act. I just continued to be awkward and say weird things. That was the great part though. We both liked the same things and he laughed at my jokes! Everyone’s always found me annoying. It was so surprising to me that someone didn’t find me completely unbearable and didn’t want to get away from me the second I started talking.
I’ve never had someone that would have my back and help me out when I need it. Whether it’s taking me to doctor’s appointments or tying my shoe, my best friend was always there to help me. Although I’m still trying to adjust to having someone I can rely on and can talk to about anything I am enjoying having a friend who is equally as awkward as I am. Some people take friendship for granite and never realize the importance of it, but I believe friendship is important for anyone no matter who they are. That’s why I will never take this friendship for granite and will always be grateful about being able to call him my best friend.