A Criminal?

Nobody can blame me! Yes, there are stains in my clothing, but I did it because my life was at risk. I hope you´will never get to understand how it is to be so alone, in a world that gets more vicious by the day. Are you listening to me? I am not trying to say that I am some kind of angel. In this world, who can stay so pure? I am just an average human being, who dreamt of having a family and just being happy. Is that too much to ask for? I never wanted to do such a thing, but that man pushed me to the limit! He kept telling me how much of a worthless human being I am. I was really hurt, after thinking how much he did damaged me. I know I can't blame him for all my mistakes, but how can I forgive long years of abuse? One way or another, I had to end that pain. It just had to end...
If God does exist, I hope he can forgive me, because I know there's no forgiveness in this Earth for somebody like me… And the worst part is that I don't care about it.