If You Only Knew

I tried to tell you of the pain I'm feeling
of being left alone to all my sufferings
but I guess there is misunderstanding...
because you wave me away for all my misgivings...

I'm bad I know
but do you have to let it show?
I don't need to reminded of my faults and mistakes
yet it is written all over your face.
Why won't you even try to hear the silent cries of my heart
of why I acted this way from the start
But instead of listening to my every tear drops
you go and made me realize my wickedness...
So here I am alone and wondering...
why am I so alone in my sufferings..
coz the only man who should comfort me
is the one man who hurts me...
who criticize me..
who condemn me
judge me
insult me...


So I turn my thoughts away from reality
with a vengeance to my fate and mortality
I choose to end thi life burdening me
and welcome death that approaches me...

perhaps now he will hear me out
thru the gravestones that mount
in his dreams I'll try to livd with him once more..
where in realityI couldnot be with him anymore.