Help!

It is starting again
this hllow feeling within
uneasiness keep me company again
oh god! It won't give me peace of mind
I feel so down and left-behind.

Just when everything seems alright now
and I have find my corner here somehow
something came along and disturb my peace
and now it has lead me into this emptiness.

The feeling that you have nowhere to go
that your world is suddenly crumbling too
Sadness and anger follow me as I go
I realize now that we really should go.


Here I lie...faith is slowly failing
Sulking and unaware that time is flying
albeit all the hardships I'm still trying
to please them all is such a hard thing
they can still find fault in everything I'm doing.


Life here is miserable
and there a number of days that I feel so uncomfortable
I dont know how to act properly in some occasion
I don't know where to turn and focus my attention.

So I lay here and stop pretending
that all is well in everything
when in truth my self-esteem is diminishing
and my peaceful happy thoughts is failing.

Tommorow another struggle
to face them and be humble
coz sometimes nature causes me to lose self control
and let bitterness and shame take control
So I'll try to gather all my patience and posture
and think of this as endless adventure.