emptiness

I meet a guy on a family's friend engagement at 30 april bhopal ... at that moment i never thought that he becomes my life i was so causal to him. and we talked alittle that he asked me u coming in marriage na? i refused he might get upset bt it doesn't matter to me.after some month i get to know ki hi8s father died it really a painful news and i was chocked about him... wanted to him to him for condolence bt didn't has his number..... awww thats mine bad luck..... and due to family the marriage of his cousin get postponed....... now i decided to go to marriage(indore) n will make him laugh again ..... so we again meet in marriage! alah! i was tieing my lengha n sudden gate was opened by him its embracing for both of us ... he sudden closed the door n get back of the room ...... den he apologize of it and from that we started talking to each other..... we became frriends we eat at one plate we had a big talks over the wedding night n much more...... there a connection ...... now the day came when we have to return to over homes i was little upset n he too ..... he told me plz keep a place just a side to u in bus wanna talk u... m waiting for him in bus bt sudden a his cousin came n sit besides me.... i was little upset n he was angry at me bt he hide his anger n sit in the middle passage of my seat so that we can sit together... it was really a good feeling that someone is taken me very seriously....... we talked to each other whole night n at morning we reached to our destinations thats very painful to apart from him bt who knows it just a beginning ....... now we started talking over cellphones n social media orkut.......we started sharing our problems family matters n all the stuff we become besties now....... one day he told me ki love me but don't wanna force me to love him back just wanna let me know his feeling ...... i was confused what to react so i cut the phone... next day i called up him n aswked r u serious he said yes m in in love with u when you were in 8 class i was shocked..... he told me i saw u when u passing through my gali i started loving u from that time when we are just teenagers .......( we lived near by when we are kids n i shifted when grow old in my teen) n yet m waiting ki again can see you if you visit here.... i cut him n replied ki m just wanna be friends becu7se i don't want ki there would be prob. in future between our parents for this bulshit reason he get upset bt hiding his feeling n said m sorry ... will never think of this again i cant be selfish again......bt from that day mine heart was started beating for him ...bt because i refuse so how can tell him mine feeling about him.. so keep quite ....

one day he said ki walked almost whole day bt never meet plz let meet some day i wanna see u .. i said okay we decided to meet over birla mandir... bt unfortunate it was closed we return to our homes bt our heart still not get satisfied by this short meeting .... he called me n told ki wanna spend some time with u next day we again meet at lake here we sit together enjoyed together that was a lovely day thus we start meeting n 0ne day dont know how the feeling of hearts get shared to each other n we now became couple from besties....thats a drastic change of mine life mine life became colorful i decied ki will tell entire stuff to mumma n i do it bt she said yet just focused on your studies n let him too bt diul kaha manne wala tha we can't stop meeting each other n day pass by we came close day by day ..... mere liye woh jaldi uthke bus stop tk ata taki mujhse ankh khulte hi dekh paye then meri class chute hi hum lunch sath krte pura din almost sath ! our bound getting much stronger day by day hamare relationh ko 4 saal ho gaye the now i was of 22 mere parents meri shadi krna chate the bt i wanna marry to him only there was a huge stuff on this topic i refuse my parents to marry anyother guy they slaped me n decided me to go out5 of station for further studies....... bt pyar kaha kam hone wala tha duriyo n use or bada diya after 2 yr jab m wapas ayi to woh station aya mujhe dekhne n it stared raining from clouds n as well as from our eyes...... i decided if my parents refuses for our marriage then will do court marriage....bt destinity ko kya manjur tha kise pata......usne kaha nahi jb parents manege tb hi shadi karenge usne mere ghr uske fufaji s phone karwaya hamari shadi k liye bt my father refuses n started scolding on his fufaji use bahut buar laga usne mujhese bt krna band kr diya aur mere ghrwalo n b kyunki8 m kisi aur s shadi k liye ready ni thi 3 mahine beet gaye ussne mujhse bat ni ki n ghrwalo n m akeli mere room m padi rehti roti rehti bt koi nahi tha mere pass mera khalipan dur krne na mom da n woh jo har kadam p mere sath tha mujhe yakin ni ho raha tha itni si bt p woh mujhse bt krna band ni kr sakta tha jis bande n mere kehne p sb chod diya woh mujhe kese chod sakta h....

to be continued...........................