Depression

I look but I cannot really see
I hear but fail to listen
Images around my mind becomes a turbulent sea
that in time cause my light to darken.


My heart beats fast with unsteady rythm
Loneliness evokes in me a strong feeling
A feeling of being lost and in need of understanding
Laughter leaves me, it leaves me despairing.


Tears of sadness I tried to hide
From the critical eyes that takes away my pride
It tear down my presence and peace of mind
they manipulated the truth that keeps us blind.


I want to cry, I want to shout
but to my despair, I shut my mouth
and hide my face in my hands
to stifle my sobs and never make a sound.


I feel so stressed, alone and depressed
this feeling is making me weak, I cannot supress
I cannot rage and enjoy life as I please
so God, please guide me and aid me to stop this mental and spiritual disease.