all the things we said

I said a lot of things growing up
I said I would not do a lot of things
i laid down a lot of rules
so many do's and don't
i swore i would never do them
they were never my intentions

Now in my prime
i am caught up in the shackles
of my constitution.
daily my rigid words melt
into flexible actions

I swear again
it was never my intentions
to rub lipstick on my lips
when I said I would not

Am sorry
i said it was an abomination
to defile my body
yet along the road
i lost track of common sense
gave up my pride
for pleasure and to please

It was forbidden to drink beer
yet now i merry in it
and dance around it clutch of intoxication

Even now
i am tempted to grab a cigarette stick
lit it up
inhale it ashy fregrance
and watch it smoke dance in facinating circles

Yes i said alot
maybe i was too young to mean them
isn't it true that we all ended
up doing all the things we said
we would never do