All He Ever Did Was Love Me

Summer of 2004, I was 16 years old a

sophomore in high school.. My friends

called me and told me they would be

going down to the beach for a bonfire and

asked if i would like to join... Well i didn't

have anything to do so i said sure lets

go... Little did i know i would meet

someone that day that would change my

life for ever...

His name was Andrew he was also a

sophomore... Might as well state now that

he was not my type, haha.. He was white/

mexican, bald head, baggy clothes, and a

weed smoker (Hey i was fun, but at that

time i definitely had not experimented

with any drugs), pretty much what people

would call a "gangster" except he did not

claim a set.. Andrew had shown up with

some friends.. One of them was dating

one of the friends i showed up with.. And

so it began.. It just so happened to be 3 of

us and 3 of them.. I was the only one who

did not know Andrew from before.. My

other 2 friends knew him from middle

school and they weren't to fond of him

since they claimed back then he was a

jerk, Well since they didn't like him,

guess who got stuck with him... ME.. Ehh

it was no biggie to me i would take one

for the team i mean he couldn't be that

bad right? So all 6 of us walked the pier, I

talked to him about different things, what

school he went to, family, sports, he

wasn't actually bad at all.. So before i left

that night he asked for my number and i

gave it to him.. That very next day he

called me, we literally spoke on the phone

for hours, the good thing was he didn't

live too far away so he rode his bike

over.. We had so much fun that day, he

made me feel different... Time went by

and there was never a day he wouldn't

tell me how he felt about me and how

beautiful i was to him.. We finally made it

official and he met my family, I met his

and it was perfect.. My family adored him

because he was so funny, sweet, and very

helpful/handy... Growing up with my

mother and grandma it was nice to have a

guy around from time to time to help out

with whatever was needed... Within

months i was so in love with him... But i

told him i didn't like the way he looked

and dressed.. he just looked so rough and

that wasn't for me.. Well that was all it

took, he let his hair grow out and he

began dressing differently, he definitely

did not look like a gangster anymore... He

was completely in love with me, When

we became juniors in high school he

bought a car, and he would pick me up

from school every day.. We would literally

spend all of our time together.. There was

a moment in time when i was a senior

that we thought i was pregnant and he

was ecstatic he wanted it to happen

because he wanted forever with me.. i on

the other hand was scared out of my

mind, i was definitely NOT ready for a

child... His family was so excited about

maybe adding to the family, my family on

the other hand never found out because i

didn't say anything.. Well it was a false

alarm, But after that happened something

changed, he became very very jealous.. he

hated that i went out with my friends on

some weekends, he would tell me they

were all sluts and that i should just be

with him... At the time i was young i

wanted to have fun, i was not about to

have a man tell me what to do... So we

broke up... That break up was really hard

for me because we had been together for

almost 2 and a half years.. But i needed

time for me.. I was not ready to feel like i

was tied down.. i wanted to be free and

do what i pleased... He begged and

begged for us to get back... And i always

said no.. I remember clearly one time we

had been broken up about 2 months, and

he walked over to my house crying,

begging me to get back with him.. And i

said no, i told him i had met someone

new and he would be picking me up

shortly so that he should leave... Till this

day i can not forget the look on his face

when i told him that... He was completely

shattered and i was unfazed...

That was in 2006 fast forward to 2010 i

was now 22 and really good friends with

his mom and it just so happened she got a

job where i worked so one night she told

me to come over to her house for some

drinks i obliged and showed up.. He was

there.. I saw him and my heart just sank

to the bottom of my stomach, but it

wasn't a bad feeling it all it was almost

like the butterflies rushed back to me.. I

think he felt the same because he smiled

and just came over to give me a huge

hug... After a few drinks with his mom we

went in his room and talked about what

we had been up to the last 4 years.. I told

him i was in school and working with his

mom.. He told me he was also in school

and working.. We literally picked up

where we had left off.. I ended up staying

over that night.. I slept in his arms and it

felt so perfect.. I never thought i would

feel the way i used to when i was 16

again.. But i am so glad i did.. After that

any free moment i had was spent with

him, we were young and so in love.. He

told me he had not dated anyone since we

had broken up in 2006 because i was the

love of his life and he always waited for

me to come back... (i on the other hand

could not say the same, but i was so glad

he waited..) We spent a whole year

together.. Doing all sorts off different

things.. even planning to get married in

the future and having kids.. As far as i

knew this was it.. He was going to be my

last.. Everyone loved that we were

together, we had both matured and were

way better off that we were when we

were 18.. My family was happy and so

was his.. But most of all WE were happy,

him and i were in complete bliss every

time we were together..

In 2011 one year after getting back

together we got in a huge fight.. One that

till this day i wish never happened.. We

got in a fight and i left his house so angry

at him.. I told him i never wanted to talk

to him again, Although he begged for me

to forgive him.. I was prideful and i said

no.. I told him i wanted nothing to do

with him ever again... And so i stopped

talking to him.. For about a month.. I

began missing him a lot, and my pride

began to run pretty thin, so i gave in and

text him.. i told him i was sorry and that i

missed him a lot and still loved him.. This

was in June 2011, he text back and he told

me he had met someone new.. This

caught me by surprise.. But i thought for

sure i could get him back I mean how

does someone you just met compare to

someone you have known and loved for

years? I was furious, i told him to leave

her.. and to try it out with me again... he

told me my chance had come and gone,

he told me i should have stayed when he

begged.. and he asked how it felt to be on

the receiving end.. it broke my heart to

know that he preferred to be with her

than with me.. Now i know how he had

felt all of those years back when i told

him my new boyfriend was picking me up

and that i didn't want to be with him...

karma was teaching me a lesson, karma

broke my heart.. He broke my heart..

Andrew.. The kid i knew since i was 16

got his vengeance, and not because he

wanted to but because i did it to myself...

I let my pride get in the way.. when i

think about it now if i had only just gone

back the day after we could have worked

it out.. I dont know if that other person

would have still come in the picture, but

at least i would have tried to make it

work with him, By September 2011 his gf

of 3 months was already pregnant with

their 1st child.. When i found out i cried

and cried myself to sleep for weeks..

There was no hope, he was having a child

with her.. It was over for good.. Till this

day he is still with her.. They are now

married and had another child... I think

about him every single day.. I miss him

every single day.. And i cant believe he

was the one that got away.. Many many

nights i have dreams where i see him, But

we are never together.. Not even in my

dreams do i get to be with him.. And i

think its Karma.. for all i ever did to him

although he always loved me.. No one

knows what the future holds, But i really

hope i can at least see him again one day,

And tell him how sorry i am for being a

fool.. I will always love him, that will

never leave me.. And i hope he thinks of

me every so often...