I know, I should've stop before everything become more complicated. But every time I saw his smirk once he came in the office, my resolve just vanish into thin air. Every minute, his lips devoured mine in a very passionate heated kiss my mind become numb and clouded by desire. And before I knew what's going on, I am already trap on the never ending pleasure, of his body against mine.
I'm not like this at first. I always resisted his advances. I avoided him like a plague, but he always knows where to find me, appearing like a shadow whenever I am. Riling me up, almost taunting until finally breaking the walls surrounding my heart.
And now, I can't turn my back anymore. Even though, I know its not right. That we're not supposed to be together. That everything between us is nothing but an illusion... and just my wishful thinking.. but I can't stop myself from believing that he's the only one for me.
"What are you thinking about?" He asked, his voice is husky and sounds so sinfully sexy that I can't help but shudder. Remembering that he used that voice last night, as he moaned my name repeatedly.
"Uh, hmm." He humm, before nipping my shoulder blades. Leaving trail of hot kisses, and making me pant with desire as my body become heated with so much lust.
But I fought my growing arousal and push him away from me. "We should stop this, Rain."
He grew rigid beside me and murmur, "Why? I thought you wanted this."
I rub my face tiredly, and look at him seriously. "But did you want to be with me? I mean, to be out in the open. As lovers.."
He frown, and open his mouth to say something but to my utter disappointment he just shrugged his shoulders, and roll out from the bed. He hurriedly, shove his clothes without even sparing me a glance. And he didn't even say anything before he storm out of the room, completely leaving me behind.
My mouth gape openly. I wanted to run and follow him. To stop him from leaving me, but my body completely freezes on the spot. I can't move.
And after a minute, I finally broke down and cry. My mind is swirling with so many emotions, dragging my mind into a never ending abyss while I continue to weep from my despair.
I guess, its too good to be true. And as always, I'm too blind with my own love for him that I didn't see the signs indicating that he doesn't feel the same as I do.
"So why are you crying now? I thought you wanted to sto—"
He didn't even finished his sentenced when I suddenly jump on him, completely catching him off guard.
"You came back..." I stutter. And repeatedly touch him all over, to ensure my sanity that he's really here. That he really did came back. "I thought you..."
"Left?" He continued for me, and I blushed when I felt his hands groping my backside. "Believe me, I'm about to. But then, I remembered that I left my keys in here..."
I pull away, my face beet red while my heart starts beating painfully. "Then you didn't come back for me.." I fought hard to keep my calm but the end of my words crack when I felt a lump in my throat.
"That might be at first but not anymore—”
He wanted to say more but I cut him off, "Leave!"
To my surprised he didn't comply. "No."
I shake my head, while the tears start to fall again from my eyes. "Please, just leave me alone!"
"No, I won't!"
"Just please I'm begging you!" I croaked. My voice shaking, while my body trembles. "If you do not feel the same, then please go out and leave me alone." I hiccup, and sniffle. "I don't want this anymore. I—"
"Stop it!" He growled, angrily and push my body with so much force. Knocking me completely on my feet. My eyes grew wide, when my back touch the soft sheets of the bed. The silk blanket draping my body were cast aside leaving me completely naked from his eyes, while he hover above me. Trapping my naked body as he eyed me predatory. "Can't you see, that I wanted you so badly." He murmur huskily before he lean down and capture my lips, "When will you realize that, I'm completely and irrevocably in love with you, huh Devon?"