PIECE OF MY MIND (1)

As I stood before her, wasting in hard times to
express this feeling that started cropping in my
mind for her days I have no idea of. I wondered if
she is the one that the red string of fate has tied
me to yet words has failed to flow like a congealed
oil in a bottle.
I believed that my eyes were not saying as much
as my heart was burdened with, words became my
greatest enemy. What could I say that would
convey my thoughts that is as pure as heaven to
her without leaving black spots of the other side on
me?
I looked into her eyes not quite convinced if what I
was seeing was the same with this flame that has
burnt down my tower of words and left me begging
her to help me out yet she could not connect to
this trouble a fellow like me was traveling through.
Maybe she thought I was planning to revel with
her emotions, maybe I've not been straight
enough.
I was not close to saying, 'I love you', I can't
imagine how oddly it would sound to her holy ears;
I wished her ears could be placed right on my
chest to hear the distress my heart has been
subjected to as I walked through this. I wished
she'd understand that my not bothering her with a
heart felt hug each time was a sign that I long to
protect our fondness of each other that has been
more than crystal clear to the world.
Fondness? I mean this love in my heart. So what
is keeping these words from flowing like the red
sea in the time of Moses? Am sure God has got
nothing to do with my predicament, maybe my
fears are taking me hostage....