Now is then was

Just a walk in the park where the dark likes to lurk
In my mind I stalk the nighttime watching it rise and flirt
With the sunshine that used to hold my hand
Now I stand at the demand of high tide against the lit fuse of a full moon landmine sky
That exploded its puzzle of fireflies into a belly of scattered stratus
Floating for just a moment in the limelight before fading to ember in seconds lasted
But not before torching horizons curtains and leaving burnt edges behind
So that is where I reside
Right at the edge
Teetering just because I can
Because I'm full of fight
And the wind is no match for mine struck against a paperback book stripe
I pay no mind because my wallet is underfed
And electricity is struggling to keep the lightning on
At least that's what the thunder said
So I keep starving a skinny bifold that's pocketed back right
Hoping to give it a full belly one of these days
Started praying just last night
But not to a face
Not to a place that calls home above the clouds
Just planted the seed for the move forward to believe in
So that the path would be mentally laid out
And I can paint these footsteps in place through meditation
Erase the chalk outlines that littered my passed time and clean up this whole Damn mind state
I've adopted a highway and adapted it to lie straight
On the narrow and lean
Where the arrow missed and targeted a quick fix
And I finally decided to get clean
I was only dirty with the powder
Couldn't stomach the opiates
But all this time I've been bleeding
I should have at least mopped up the mess
Instead I was left with streaked linoleum and hardwood floors swollen by the overwhelming flood of platelets
That rushed from my veins
when I overflowed a levy that barricaded my hatred
And I got lost for too long in the welcome home arms of angers breast
Now I just walk in the park where my darkness used to lurk well dressed
Enjoying the naked tree lined view of nascent spring
And shedding the skin of this bruised skeleton
Against the roots of a future page
That has
Just
Now
Been
Written