It was a difficult move. I still adored the old fashioned books and stories and the digital world seemed very dull and lifeless. But slowly I began to love my affair with the internet and I created my email id in 1999. I really needed somebody to talk to, somebody to share my strange views on love, life, marriage and the world. I joined many pen pal clubs finally got a very nice girl from Germany.
I opened my mind through my letters and she gave positive feedback to my concepts. As an ardent fan of DH Lawerence and HG Wells, I did not hesitate to tell her that all the entertainment involving man and woman was legitimate. But she said she hated certain things in that field. But she did not hate me. How can I discuss these things with an Indian girl? Not possible. My happiness knew no bounds when I got person who accepted my views.
Apart from the nice friendship I had, I began to search for money making opportunities. Typing, data entry, marketing and writing. Almost all the web sites were frauds. I was very much frustrated when I lost a lot of money and time doing a social bookmarking advertising job. Like that I lost a lot of money on many fraud web sites and finally came across an English grammar exercise site. The owner of the site provided me with a lot of questions and I had to answer them. I worked hard and I got money. But dear friends, most of the net based offers are fraudulent. I learned a lot from my experience.
Every person will have some dark phases in his or her life and you cannot say that all people are sexually chaste. In my youth, I had struggles with my sexuality and though no one will tell their secrets about their personal life, I would like to bring to you the most shocking incident when I opened an adult web site one night. The bizarre incident happened in 2004, when I saw my photo on one of the adult sites on the net! Like many unmarried, suppressed individuals I had wandered through the dark alleys of some South Indian towns and I was unaware of the fact that mobile cameras were following me. I wanted to share this terrible secret to my friends and my friend in Germany, but I did not have the guts. I somehow want to register this horrible incident (which I did not explain in details here) some where so that people may get an awareness of the dangers of wayward life and its connection with the internet. I am humiliated, I am ashamed, people will scorn me, but it is a reality- I found a photo of myself in a dubious situation with a lady in a room! Oh my God! Let it fade away within five or ten years from the dangerous world wide web.
My life has been very clean from that time onwards and my connection with the internet continues in a positive way.