Falling stars

Another night spent
With eyes wide open
The mattress is satisfaction
But I have no comfort to hold
Cocooned under sheets and blankets of dreams bright
Not something I've tasted though I remember their spice
Somehow I've taken to life like a fight or flights delayed
Wasting under the sedation of spread wings
And getting high while I wait
The come down is rough and the landing gear never tough enough
To handle the weight
So it dismantles the sky
When the morning rises too late
That's why I keep my engine on safety though it's belts are wearing thin
And I'm too broke to prepare for the any moment now issue
When the machine requires the most maintenance
I Just blow on the coals
Hoping to keep an ember
Just to watch it glow
Before its spent into memory
Now I'm enveloped in the smoke
And the burning sap of wet pine
Wondering if I saw you in the sky tonight
Would it be the last time
Have my wish I Mays been revoked
My stars all out of focus
Or am I trying too hard to see that I'm rowing
and treading
Without a paddle
And hope is the only steering vessel I have
But she is the glow that brings men home to their family
The lighthouse that posts coastal it's warning of the reefs
While boats are falling asleep in waves floating rested
I'm better invested in the page than segregated
Because isolation is a place I don't want to know yet
And I smoke too many cigarettes
Sometimes let my impulses take precedent
Over a reality sublet by psychedelics
But every now and then we all need to check in
Remember to respect our lessons of learned behavior
And stop asking a savior for blessings
Because my god rests in the web of my humanity
Stretched from pillar to pillar to catch the essence of any sanity I have left
Just a message to the deaf ear
To look and see more clearly
And to stop expecting a remedy to come from a tragedy here.