Deppression

Look at me
I may look like sane
but deep inside
blood boils within my veins
My eyes exudes tranquility
yet my vision is slowly clouding out of fury.

Look there my child is wailing
I turn around and dare not comfort her
afraid it may end up to--beating.

I am tired physically and emotionally
My limbs are aching every now and then
and my soul is wrecked and my solid pillar is crumbling
yet they go on with their own life with their daily routine
I know they too are tired of everything.

But why must I suffer this way?
no comfort, no shoulder to lean on
I feel so alone, yet I cannot allow myself to
breakdown
I may be calm but inside a storm is brewing
I may be smiling but my hands are clenching.
I am reaching my limit, my patience is running dry
I feel so tired and drained, could not even cry
I really want to scream and lash at everything but I dare not try
Coz good luck is not on my side.

So please give me not just my space but your time and endurance as well
Do not let me crawl inside this shell
Talk to me, let me feel your love
comfort me, give me time and patience to remove me from my hell
I needed you
so please bear with me my love.